maybe since i was busy with my work and assignments, while you're busy with your friends and courses.
In my defense, at least i was busy earning money.
Well, i am exhausted. I am bored. I am tired. I came to you in order to comfort myself and catching up what i've missed. But seems like you're such different person i ever knew. You angry easily. And seems not interested to talk to me, meanwhile you're busy with your friends.. or game.
Okay, i'll shut up. Hope everything's not going worse.
The next day, i found myself missed you damn bad. And nothing i could do, since you're still busy with your things. Lets say, i'm still fine.
Maximum 3 hours per week we meet. And you're still busy with your blackberry. Can't they just let you alone? Or it's you who can't let them away?
I never complain going out using public transportation. I never complain you can't drive anything. But you made your disability as reasons to not come visit me or meet me, while you could go out with your friends. In my defense, that's not my fault that you can't drive. I didn't blame you, that's a good thing already. But why you made some another reasons so you can escape from me?
That night i said goodnight and said i loved you when you're not even home yet and busy studying (which for me, you're already over studying and i believe it's not 100% study).
What did i get? Not even an I love you. Not even a goodnight. Not even a word from you when you got home.
The next morning, you didn't even let me know you woke up already. While you already tweeting!!!! If you're asking why i also didn't tell you that i woke up already, that's because you didn't tell you you're home. And even watched soccer till morning. I knew nothing about you already!
So you're too busy with your study team this one last month. I made myself busy with works in order to not notice you didn't care about me.
The next day, I was not in a good condition. Not only my body was sick, but also my heart. I needed you while you're still too busy studying. You didn't even asked me, you didn't even care. That day, we didn't talk until evening came. Pretty cool! Then you went out with friends (again).
And it's not happen once or twice. You never been here when i need you the most. Even just for a call. Even just to comfort.
So you didn't want to go with your dad. You said you'll go with him next year, since 2 years ago. This time the reason is you couldn't let your mom stay at home alone. Why don't you asked your fam first? They may have a conclusion. And i still keep asking WHY DID YOU MAD AT ME AND SAID I DIDN'T LOVE MY MOM? Let me tell you something, if i don't love my mom, i even don't love you more. Note that!
Oh, I know. You always be like that when i push you to work. You said don't want to work in an office. So why don't you do something else instead of just sitting in your parent's shop and (just like you said) it's not help them a lot. Where's your responsibility as a man? And as a son?
For God's sake, i don't want your parent's money! And i tell you, i won't live from their money. Even when if one day i marry you.
On the other hand, I am pretty not sure about our future. You almost never keep your promise. You said you'll call, but you didn't. You didn't talk to me. If you can't keep a little promise, how can i believe your live-together-till-death-do-tear-us-apart promise??
As a summary, I am pretty much used to what happen above. And as a result, I lost the sparks, I lost the love, I lost the idea of us.
What do you think about this relationship would go?
